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I'm trapped in a cage i built myself The walls keep closing in I can't climb out but maybe i don't want to This room is now my home It hurts so much but its what I've always wanted To stay here on my own If you decide to draw me a door and leave it open wide I wouldn't want to stray from here For fear id leave myself behind

I am cracked I am broken A puppet with no strings I am worn I am choking Forgotten how to breathe I am small I am helpless The darkness closing in I am alone I am haunted The reminder of my sin I am cold I am vulnerable A child all alone I am lost I am wandering No place i can call home

Loved you once. Love you still. Always have. Always will. Departed from me. Don't look back. Another loss. Another crack.

Little devil drenched in sin. Play your wrists like a violin. Cut long and cut deep. Play the song nobody will speak. Hum the tune nobody will hear, but to you rings loud, rings clear. Swells in your heart like hope, like pride. Though down inside you feel its died. Smile at the beauty, smile at the grace. See the horror on your mothers face. They never know just how you feel. Decay inside so very real. The skeleton hand cradles you now. She wont let you know why, know how. Rest now six feet below. Take with you the song that only you know.

You know my name. Don't pretend you know my story. You see my smile. But you don't know what i hide. You see the cuts. Don't assume I'm just the same.

Can you see the pain in my eyes? The barriers i put up to hide the lies? If you hold me close you can hear my heart. It cries more than most from being torn apart. Can you fathom how it feels? A heart so broken that it never heals.

It's been two months now and still not a word. No apology from you, i thought id have heard. I still think back, to what we had. I remember now, not all the memories were bad. But i remember the pain, each silent tear. Even though i hate you, i still want you near.

Hushabye baby cry no more Crimson blood pooling on the floor The razorblade sinner cut you deep But you shall relish your eternal sleep Ribbon red river floods from a cut They will try to fix you to sew it shut They will spit in your face to feel like a winner Bullied to suicide They are the sinner

When the sky is black, midnight You will hunt for heavens light Hold your razor high and watch her gleam Cut through your flesh and hold back that scream Your crimson liquid will begin to run You've cut in deep, wont live till the sun Color now seeps from upon your face Your blood will run from your skin's embrace A painful existence washes away Your happy now, didn't want to stay Your final task at last complete You will fall from upon your feet On the floor you shall lie Is this the end? where you want to die? A rare smile lingers on your face You think its your time to cross to the other place I hope your happy wherever you

I blame you for the slashes Two marks across my vein I blame you for the bruises Your violent game I'll blame you forever Because you couldn't feel the same